i was cleaning my drawer and in all of a sudden, memories led me back to yesterday. i saw letters, small notes and pictures that i kept, yes, i know i am a melancholic at times, however sometimes it’s also nice remembering the past.
I first received a love letter when I was in third year high school. It’s not a surprise for me because the letter came from one of my closest guy friends (do I have to say his name? hehe!), Itwas not surprising because guys fall easily just like girls. I mean, just show some sweetness and he will think that you like him (but not all guys okay! Just some). So that’s what happened, he fell for me. He used a pen and a piece of paper to tell me that “Hindi ko alam, pero gusto talaga kita!” (haba ng hair diba). Yun nga lang I was still young then kaya siyempre I answered “Bata pa ako eh, magagalit nanay ko!” Ayan so we ended as friends gang ngayon, but I know masama pa rin loob niya but that’s life. So when I graduated highschool, nagka jowa ako, pero hindi siya, someone older than me at ka-brod pa nung unang nanligaw. Since he was older, siya lagi nagiinitiate like dates, our monthsary, annive celeb, etc. one thing I really appreciate about this guy is that dahil long distance relationship kami he makes it to a point na every month or twice a month nagsusulat siya. Imagine may cellphone na’t lahat-lahat he still writes to me. And that was our scenario for three years. Kaya ang dami kong sulat from him, napuno ata yung isang box ng shoes ko. Nwei, after collecting [a trash] I mean love letters, napunta din iyon eventually sa basura because my next bf was so possessive. Eh ayaw niya ng bakas ng isa man sa mga sulat na iyon.
On the other hand, mahilig din magsulat at magcompose ng song itong ex jowa jowahan ko. He made songs for me at na appreciate ko iyon. He was a vocalist ng isang banda.Nwei, marami pang nagbigay ng notes and letters sa akin, yung iba manliligaw yung iba friends at yung iba nagging jowa jowahan. I am really a senti person kaya ito nakatago parin.
I really love keeping these notes, letters and pictures. Nakakatuwa lang talaga silang basahin. Here are some of my favorite lines:
“I can remember the time when I spilled the cup of apple juice in the hall but you told me it’s not my fault. And now, I’m slightly bruised and broken from the collision of your kiss and I appreciate that because you made me feel pain again, for I was paralyzed and could not feel anything before.”
“This world is too much for me to take. So can I lay down and follow you? I’ll be everything you need in every way. Just tell me what you want, because I will give you everything.”
“I haven’t been this scared in a long time and im so unprepared. So here’s your valentine: bouquet of CLUMSY words with a simple melody. This world’s an ugly place (trust me!) but you’re so beautiful to me.”
“How does a butterfly live? How does a buttefly become a butterfly? How does a butterfly just float around without knowing that it has so many admirers? How does a butterfly not know how beautiful she is? How does a butterfly not know she is a butterfly? How does one catch a butterfly? How does a butterfly respond? I know you will never understand. There are so many nets floating around trying to catch a butterfly. My butterfly, be careful. In a world full of nets, there is an open hand just waiting to take care of you and is always willing to care. My butterfly, float gently into the world.”
“Just like an unfinished image we begin to see the picture, but we fail to understand the whole message. There were so many things to be said that were never said and some things that needed explanation that could not be explained. Sometimes its up to faith to finish the whole picture.”
“I thought I would not have the chance to tell you how much you mean to me. I was very glad that I was given the chance to show you that I love you. I don’t know how this came to me, but it just happen. All I know is I’ve treasured the moments with you.”
Sa kabilang banda, I also kept the charcoal drawing of my best bud in college (tnx bert for this). I was so touched when he gave me this drawing. Alam ko nagddrawing siya pero I didn’t expect na he will make one like this.
And to end this, here’s a pix of our batch in college Mass Comm Sais! I miss them all kaya nilagay ko na din sila dito. Hope to see you sometime soon… sa malayang panahon!