no more tears…

after a long week of mourning and grieving, we finally got the chance to visit our lost friend in puguis, la trinidad, benguet. friday last week, we took the risk to go up the north. it took us 4hours to reach baguio from the usual 2 1/2 hours since we needed to take the detours in pangasinan.

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i can’t sleep during that time, as if my emotions were lingered with so much worries. as we passed through the narrow and winding road of marcos highway, with mud on its side that came from the mountains and some roadcuts, i still can’t help myself but to think of what happened to our dearest ate toni.

DSC05434my heart beats faster and faster as we were getting nearer and nearer to our destination. as soon as we got to the church where the remains of our dearest ate toni and the rest of her family were placed,ย  my heart started to break slowly. tears fell from my eyes. it even felt more painful than losing a bf. it’s not the usual pain, but the pain that comes from within, that not even encouraging words can comfort me.

my colleagues and i started to realized, that yes it is indeed true, ate toni is already gone. i, myself, cannot accept the fact that she is really gone but what can i do, nandyan na sa harapan ko ang katawan niya na nasa kabaong, need i contest more to what i wanted to believe in that she is still alive.

a tribute was given to ate toni that night together with her youngest sister, who also died in a landslide. we prepared an audio visual presentation. then we started to deliver our eulogies after the avp was played. it was the first time i delivered a Eulogy, it took me minutes to have the courage to speak about her on how she had touched our lives, in front of people i am not familiar with since i can’t stop crying. it was so hard, yet i still managed to tell everybody how thankful i am to have her in my life.

DSC05510before we left the church that night, me and my friend ev were able to talk to ate toni’s father. he told us how hard and painful it is to lose half of his family members. we sympathized with him, since we know that what happened was very traumatic on his part. however, despite the experiences, he still managed to share to us how a big piece of mud took the lives of his wife, son, and two daughters in just few seconds. according to him, yung landslide ay lumihis sa bahay namin pero dahil sa sobrang lakas ng impact nito sa pagbagsak sa kalsada, nagbounce ito pabalik sa taas kaya tinamaan ang halos lahat ng bahay sa lugar namin. maybe, just maybe, they wanted to save their lives pero dahil panahon na para kunin sila ni Lord, nangyari ang dapat o kinatatakutang mangyari.

the next day a funeral service was held at the same church. her sisters shared their own stories, and again,ย  it made us cried.

DSC05446we also took the chance to glance for the last time ate toni’s body before it will be buried.

DSC05448after the service, we headed to the cemetery. upon arrival the sun was still high. almost all the people who attended the funeral service also went to the burial.

DSC05459a short prayer was delivered and songs of praises to the Lord were sang.

DSC05465we witnessed how the left family members grieved as their loved ones were buried on the ground.

DSC05476the rain poured after few minutes of staying in the cemetery, as if nakikiramay at nakikidalamhati ang langit.

DSC05491then it stopped after it expressed its feelings. that time, after grieving, mourning, and crying we still managed to smile in front of the camera. i believed that this is what ate toni wants to see in us, to smile just like the smile she always had.

DSC05505yes, it is quite painful at times but what comforts me is the thought that she and her mom, sister and brother is already with the Lord.

the lost of a friend taught me some few things. that

1. there is no safer place than to be at God’s hands

2. as long as we have the chance to live on this earth, we should express how much we love our family, friends, and people close to us

3. we should learn to forgive those who do wrong to us, hurt us, and sin against us and likewise, we should also learn to say sorry if we have done wrong to others

4. we should always trust the Lord in everything dahil lahat ng bagay galing sa Kanya at kontrolado Niya ang buhay. like what ate toni once said, LIVE FOR WHAT IS ETERNAL!

5. life is so short. so let’s make the best out of it.

leaving you with this picture. habang nakikita ko ang batang ito, nakakakita ako na habang may buhay may pag-asa at bukas pang haharapin, ngunit sa kabila nito natatakot din ako na sa posibilidad na ilang bata pa ang mawawalan ng kinabukasan dahil sa delubyong ating nararanasan.

DSC05515Let us pray for everybody’s safety. GodBless!

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54 thoughts on “no more tears…

  1. base muna hehe..

  2. namiss ko dito ah hehe..
    lets smile again pag katapos ng lahat lahat na nangyari/..:)
    then face all the trials na binbigay nya satin..

    party na ito hehe..:)
    welcome back ate yhen hehe..(i know di ka naman nag hiatus pero iba kasi ung sigla di ba hehe..)
    ni wewelcome ko lang hehe..:)
    hugs hugs..

  3. boypulubi

    Ang mga litrato na ang makapagsasabi ng lahat.
    Tama ang limang mga bagay na sinabi mo.
    At ang panghuling litrato, tunay ngang nagsasabing, ipagpatuloy mo, hanang may buhay ay may pag-asa.

  4. kitin

    she’s happy now…

  5. ppprrssstt!! hu hu hu.. penge tissue dyan.. paminsan-minsan lang ako dumadalw dito, pinapaiyak mo pa ako..

    nadurog tuloy ang puso kong bato..

    naalala ko tuloy ang mga magulang ko…

    wala tayong magawa.. gayang lang talaga ng buhay..

    tama ka dyan.. habang may-buhay may pag-asa, para-paraan lang yan.

    wwrrssttt!.. tulo na uhog ko.

    • nakuha mo ba yung tissue na padala ko? hehe

      di naman kita pinaiiyak.. yaan mo sa mga susunod na post papangitiin na kita… hehe

  6. forbiddenlei

    waaahhh ang sad talaggaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

  7. taympers

    nakikiramay ako sau. masakit mang tanggapin ang pagkawala, pero kelangan talaga e. sana okey na sila ngayon kung nasan man sila.

  8. There are no goodbyes….

    ….just see you laters….

    well…. we hope much much much much later…

  9. Kakaiba talaga ito para sa akin. Nakakabasa ako ng first hand experiences ng mga taong nabiktima roon. Maraming salamat Yhen sa lakas ng loob mong mag-share sa amin ng iyong story at ni Ate Toni.

    Live for what is eternal–Eto ang pinakanagustuhan ko sa lahat. Kung lahat siguro ay ganyan ang pag-iisip siguro bawas ang problema ng mundo.

    Nakikiramay ako sa iyo Yhen at sa family nila. Nakakalungkot mang isipin na hindi na natin sila makakasama sa pagpapatuloy ng buhay natin pero siguradong makikita naman natin sila sa next life.

  10. no more lonely nights, there will be no other… just stay happy and always be safe…

    kapag naging malungkot ka pa, kasamang kang maguguho sa anino ng nakaraan… hindi makatutulong, hindi makabubuti…

  11. This is really sad, Yhen. Really sad.

    • yes po… pero despite d sadness we felt po masaya na rin kami dahil alam naming nasa heaven na siya…

  12. Mr. Nonsense

    my prayers to all…
    btw, galing talaga ng pinoy, inspite of the tradegies, sige pa rin ang photo-ops…smile๐Ÿ™‚

  13. she’ll be happier dun sa taas, sooner or later dun di naman ang bagsak natin eh, it’s just her time na talaga, be happy ^__^

  14. dencios

    ang sakit seeing all these things.

    ayoko ng feeling na ganito sa totoo lang yhen

    pero gladly maganda natapos ang entry mo, totoo, there is no safer place than to be at Godโ€™s hands!

  15. “… itโ€™s not the usual pain, but the pain that comes from within, that not even encouraging words can comfort me….”

    Ditto when I saw the photos. Really really sad, yhen.

    My prayers,
    K

  16. kondolens…

  17. ate yhen, kamusta ka na ngayon?

  18. Nobody wants this feeling, I’m not afraid of death, ’cause I know everyone will be there, what I am afraid of is the pain it leaves us.

    You’ll be better soon.

  19. this is so heartbreaking.

    condolence yhen๐Ÿ˜ฆ

  20. huli na ko. wahhhhhhhhh

    awts. talagang may pics.. nakakasad.
    pero nakakatuwa kasi nagather ang mga taong malapit sa kanya at nagka chance na makapag get together kahit may mga buus skeds.

    pink ang motif??

    teka ang cute nng bata sa misterdonut.

    hi ate Yhen Good Tanghale!!

    tambling tambling muna!!!!!

    • hi jason… di naman huli, slyt lang…

      yup cute nga nung bata napaka inosente ng kanyang mga mata…

      salamat hamster… mwahugs…

  21. i know she’s happy now with Him. sana nga wala ng delubyo pang dumating at sana din matuto na tayong mag-alaga ng kalikasan.

  22. Muling napadaan.. titignan ko lang kung me bago kang post.. pero sana hindi yung nakaka iyak.. iyakin pa man din ako..

    abangan ko na lang ang next post mo.

  23. ELIment

    ang lungkot naman yhen…

    …ganda ng unang picture..pakiramdam ko nakatanaw ako sa bintana.

    …grabe pala talaga ang nangyari sa lugar nila.

    …ang ganda..tama yong 5 na nasa list mo.

    …ingat and GBU.

    ..hi nga pala kay love at stoix๐Ÿ™‚

  24. rio

    nakikiramay ako sau at sa pamilya ni ate toni..
    may they rest in peace..

    kakalungkot ang kwento mo yhen.=c

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